What does this poem say ?

The speaker starts off being confused with him/herself. They're looking for a way out but at the same time close off all options. They realize they truly want to get out and leave the dungeon they put themselves into in the second stanza. In the third they rethink their desires and realize that it would be easier to just stay miserable in their prison. NO. Another urge to get out, leave their life behind for a while. Find somewhere else to get out of their own life. The speaker is just stressed but I don't think the poem says enough to necessarily call it depression. It is good though, and I hope the speaker's time off fixed things up.